Konoha’s Love Master - ~ On the first day after the breakup

   on the first day after breaking up

   is not an extra.

  Last night, I broke up with my girlfriend of three years and three months…

   When I wrote this, I suddenly got stuck.

   After a night, when I wrote the word “break up”, my heart still throbbed.

   I moved out of her place last night and didn’t go back to my house. I stayed at Haiyou for one night, but I couldn’t find anyone to tell me.

  In life, almost all friendships are broken, and the only person to talk to is her.

   Being separated from her is something I imagined but never really faced.

   It was after seven o’clock last night. I went back to the rental house of two people, and I was still chatting with my book friends. The code word record of Jiangbei Old Thief in 2021 is 76 short vibrato videos.

   The chat page with her in WeChat stays at:

  I: Your decision

  Little Devil: Let’s separate

I’m good

  …

   My note to her is “Little Devil” because she’s really, really special.

   I have never seen someone like her.

   She broke into my life, like a meteorite, turned the whole world upside down.

  I am a rational realist. I am just a good person among ordinary people. I can achieve 90 points in many things, but I can’t achieve the ultimate.

   My only emotional point is emotion, only emotionally, I am not rational.

   And she is an extreme idealist.

  Those who have never met a philosopher or thinker may not be able to understand someone like her.

   Sensibility is above everything else, compared to spiritual needs, the care of real life is not worth mentioning.

   She is very sensitive and vulnerable, and she needs extreme spiritual care, which is love.

   She will be vulnerable enough to want to commit suicide, she will suffer because the world is not good enough, she will ask me why there are such bad people in this world.

  She is good at thinking.

   In the Huo/Zun incident, she firmly stood on the side of the man, not the woman, because she discovered that the woman was the villain.

   In the Wang/Lehom incident, she still fought for the man, because from the clues it can be seen that the woman is not a good person, and the man was forced to marry and threatened.

   She can always think independently, can see the essence of things, and then suffer for it.

   She was not used to this world and did not understand why the Creator created wicked people.

   I said, the world is like this, we can only adapt.

   She said, I don’t accept it, if I can’t change, I’d rather die.

  Look, this is her.

  I made a lot of concessions for her, because it was the first time I met such a person, and I thought, if I could, I might be able to see a completely different life.

  Not so ordinary chai rice oil salt.

   Her marriage plan is after the age of 32, and her childbirth is after the age of 38. These are things that my parents cannot accept, but I still promised her.

   I am a self-sufficient person, so I can provide everything and watch her.

   But she is too extreme.

  When time passes, passion degenerates, and love moves towards family, I still love her, but I no longer have so much energy and willingness to take care of her spirit carefully.

   There will be times when I’m in a bad mood, although I don’t blame her, but her messy lifestyle really makes me uncomfortable.

   My obviously bad attitude will hurt her.

   She said she couldn’t live like this.

   I said, this is life, it cannot be so harmonious forever.

   she said, she can’t help it.

   We have also had a breakup before, and it was before we moved in together, and our future plans had a bigger difference.

   After being torn apart very painfully, but helplessly, driven by her emotions, she would come to me again. Every day, the voice of WeChat is five or six hours a dozen.

   The problem can’t be solved, but it can’t be let go.

   In the end, it dragged on like this, and another year and a half passed.

  Emotions are always the most difficult thing to control. Even if reason knows it is not suitable, it still cannot be controlled.

  Last night, I pushed open the door.

   She was standing there, and I saw the corners of her mouth go up…

  Yes, she wanted to laugh.

   She smiles every time she sees me, because she is emotional, she is happy when she sees me, so she grins.

   But silly girl, I’m here to get something…

  I didn’t even take off my mask, just walked in as usual.

   I asked her: “Are you sure?”

   Her expression suddenly changed.

  Idiot, I just remember now that I’m not going home as usual.

   I started packing.

  Wherever I go, she follows.

   I said: “I can’t take many things with me. If you don’t want to see them, just throw them away.”

   She lowered her head: “Hmm.”

   I actually packed up quickly, but stayed in every corner of the house for a while.

   She followed behind.

  I stood by the window.

   “Let’s live well in the future.” I said.

   She nodded.

   “You are a great person, don’t doubt yourself.” I said again.

  I am afraid that she will not be able to live without me.

   How bad is her real life ability…

   Her eyes were red and she started to cry.

   She always likes to cry.

   But this time, I don’t ask her what she’s crying anymore.

  I picked up the phone: “This time, I will block you, if you want to be decisive, be decisive, don’t pull back and forth.”

   She cried and watched me block her phone number and delete the WeChat record.

   “Am I no longer able to get through to you?” she asked.

   I nodded.

   She wanted to grab my hand, but she didn’t touch it in the end. She only cried and said, “Don’t delete Alipay friends, I will return the money to you.”

   I deleted it anyway.

“Need not…”

   My eyes started to blur.

   “You don’t have to pay me back…”

   I said: “Just live well…”

  I opened the door.

   “To live well.”

  I didn’t look at her, I opened the door and went out.

   I know that once I hesitate, I can’t stop.

   But when the door closed, I couldn’t help but look back at her.

   She was staring at me with red eyes in the only gap left in the door.

“boom.”

   I closed the door.

   Go straight to the elevator.

   I was still thinking that she might chase it out like last time.

   But this time the elevator came very fast.

  I didn’t allow myself to hesitate and went in quickly.

   I booked a hotel for myself and lived near the company.

  I ate Yang Guofu from that subway station.

   We passed by there many times, and we felt that the business of this store was unexpectedly good. We made an appointment to go there and try it when we couldn’t think of anything to eat.

   In the end, I still didn’t go with her.

   After I clicked, I couldn’t find the location by the floor-to-ceiling window.

  I want to look at this subway station where I commute every day for more than three years, but in the end I can only sit in the middle.

   As I ate, I imagined if tears would fall into the soup.

   Actually no.

   I won’t cry outside.

   I need a space to myself.

  I remember that before I went to pick up my things, I could still sit on the subway as always, and it felt the same as when I came home.

   It’s just that the head will feel dizzy at that time.

strangeness.

  Emotions are calm, but the body responds.

   I went back to the vicinity of the company and entered the Hi Friends Hotel.

  I was thinking, if I want to ask if breakfast is delivered, I can give a five-star praise…

   In the end, he didn’t say anything, he took the room card and went upstairs to open the door.

   I didn’t expect this Haiyou to be so broken.

   Surely you shouldn’t save money.

  I took out my toiletries, and after taking a shower, took out my phone.

   I checked WeChat, but there was no new friend application.

  The **** thing is that this store doesn’t even have wifi, and I don’t even have the traffic to swipe videos.

   I can only lie in bed, alone.

   I finally got my own space.

   I knew I needed to cry.

  If your emotions are not released, it will be difficult to live a normal life.

  I am still so sensible.

   Like I will tell her she is great, I don’t want her to pay back, let her live well.

  I think, I still have a scheming.

   In this relationship, I did my best, where would she go to find someone better than me?

  I think, we will go to Jiading New Town together on Christmas Day to see the Grand Theater that she has always wanted to see. She said that it was designed by the top international designers invited in China, and it has a special sense of design.

  We went to Nanxiang Ancient Town.

She said that the crab noodle dumplings here are not bad, but the best thing to eat is the 10 yuan 3 skewers of tenderloin, which is the best tenderloin she has ever eaten. If she comes back next time, it must be for the tenderloin .

   I thought it would be me who would accompany her next time…

   Heart began to throb, and tears fell down in large drops.

   I soon started having a stuffy nose and wheezing.

   I can’t lie down.

   Because of the blocked nose.

  I sat up and felt cold again, so I put a down jacket on my body.

   Down jackets are very warm.

  I thought again, why did it become like this?

  Why she just refuses to step back?

  I want to call her, I want to say, Mingming, as long as she can be a little more realistic and accept the unpleasantness in life, we can get married, live together for many years, and reach the age of gray…

  Why? !

  I picked up the phone irresistibly, found her name in the address book, and canceled the red label that prevented this person from calling.

   But I didn’t make the call.

  I think if she called at this time, maybe it was God’s will.

   I threw my phone aside.

  I thought about a lot of things, thinking that I will never have this person in my life in the future. I will never find a unique person like her, and I will never find such a spiritual harbor.

   I suddenly felt that I was in darkness, and I was the only one left in my world.

   I have to say that I use my reason to guide my life.

After    crying, I picked up my phone again and blocked calls from this phone number again.

   I feel so much better.

   I threw away my phone, turned off the lights and fell asleep.

  Wake up at 7:30 in the morning, and always sleep well after exhaustion.

  I know that a person like her will only suffer ten times as much as I did last night.

   But what does that have to do with me?

   After checking out, I was walking down the street with a heavy bag on my back.

  I was thinking about what to have for breakfast today.

   As a result, I went to the whole family that I am familiar with.

   I haven’t had breakfast here for a long time. After living together, I always steamed two steamed buns, boiled an egg, and soaked soy milk in the morning. This is our breakfast.

   I bought siomai, meat buns and soy milk in my family.

  I have never had such a poor breakfast for the whole family.

   The meat bun is like yesterday, the skin is very hard.

   There is no freshly ground soymilk, this soymilk seems to be made at home.

The music played by    is “Annual Rings”, and I listened silently.

   There was an old man and a young man sitting opposite, and a young woman came after them.

   is not good looking.

   It’s not as good-looking as her anyway.

   I put all my trash in the dry bin.

   put on the bag and walked out.

  The mood is very calm.

   Thanks to all the book friends who read it, I really have no friends to talk to.

   And I feel like I need to remember how this moment feels.

   Maybe there will be a follow-up, maybe not.

   I have never experienced a breakup like this, so I don’t know what will happen next.

   Maybe it’s a sentence of relief, telling everyone that I’m fine.

   Maybe it’s tangled and can’t let go.

   I still have hundreds of photos that I haven’t deleted yet, that’s something I don’t dare touch yet…

   (end of this chapter)